The Break up

When I started this blog I wanted to use it as a place to collect pictures of things which I wanted to have more of in my life. Since then I discovered Pinterest which actually is much better place for that purpose. I am, as it turns out not extremely talented in bringing in manifestations from visions that I have. I am starting to think that I am placing my visions too far away from where I am. Doing this generates a lot of negative energy, like not being happy with the here and now at all. Feeling frustrated that I am not moving forward towards dreams that I do not have a belief system to support; I have decided to let them go. I did that today!

I realized having lived more than 12 years trying o pursue a dream that I today is nowhere closer that maybe it is like being in a bad relationship. Nothing is working but one cannot leave because what else is out there. Who would I be without my dream? I have been told that I am so lucky to know what to do with my life. But in the end, this dream of mine was closing far more doors than it opened.

Letting something go, whether it is a long held dream or a relationship requires a few steps. At first feeling all the negative feelings of disappointment, frustration and the sensation of being stuck and acknowledging that the thought of my dream does not make me happy anymore, not even the thought of reaching it, means that we are done with each other. I can also acknowledge that having had this dream for the last 12 years I have learned so extremely much. I have moved to another country. I have gotten a PhD. I have had several spiritual realizations. I have become a Kundalini Yoga teacher. There is so much to be grateful for. I can see why my soul wanted me to have this journey. Letting go of the soul contract between me and my dream, I am also feeling a bit sad, and that is OK. A mourning period belongs to all break ups. Finally I forgive myself, for not being what the dream needed inorder to reach its full potential. I also forgive the dream for driving me so far without giving me any hints or help on the way. I love you dream!

I was never able to make this blog into a visual manifestation of my long held dream. Maybe this is because I am not a person that is so material. I think it is time to wake up this old blog and use it instead for an aspect that I have; the visionary. I will share visions that come to me, small obsessions of possibility that I might and might not do anything about. If you are drawn to them, and you are a little better in making things happen than I am, I would love for you do so and tell me about it.

At the moment I get a vision that this blog could be a community. A community of shared ideas and ideas that are put small scale and big scale into practice. Like sawing small positive seeds into this world and together make them grow. This is a empty blog at this moment, so the momentum is definitely lacking. I will not let this scare me. I will fill it with content until people find it. Maybe with your help this blog cold become soul food not just for us but anyone who comes in here.

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